Love in the Distance

To my dearest long-distance sister,
I was too embarrassed to face you
I was too afraid I might let you down
I was defeated by negativity
I was lost and ran away from reality
I was worried being left behind
I was hopeless to get a hope
I was the worst me I should not have shown you
Dear my best friend,
I am leaving before others leave me behind
I am locking myself in high and thick walls
I am living not to enjoy this life
I am looking for reasons why I live my life
I am wondering how to kill this evil mind
I am wandering to get back on the right track
My beloved sister-like best friend,
I keep watching on you despite my absence
I keep praying for you in silence
I keep seeing you in my remembrance
I keep loving you in this distance